Bitten

I have been down since Monday night with the infamous ‘big’ that’s going around.

Jess has been sick for 2 weeks, Jackson has been sick for 2 weeks, and I have been healthy as can be. In fact, just about everyone at work has been sick and somehow, I have avoided it’s curse. That is, until Monday night.

When I came home Monday evening I didn’t feel well. I had a sore throat and my body was aching a little bit. I tried to brush it off but by about 8:00pm there was no denying it: I was getting sick. So, I labored on for the rest of the evening and went to bed. Notice I didn’t say that I went to sleep, merely went to bed. That’s because I slept like crap Monday night. In fact, were it not for a dream I vividly remembered when my alarm went off, I would have sworn I tossed and turned the entire night. Getting out of bed it felt like my body was encased in wax overnight. Nothing wanted to move and when it did it hurt. I ignored this pain and the burning sensation in my throat and headed off to work.

Arriving at work, I had a lot I needed to do. After an hour though, I went into priority mode. What did I NEED to get done in case I needed to leave early. You see, my body was quickly winning the argument as to whether or not I should have left my bed. Mind said yes, body said no. As is usually the case, my body was right. By about 9:00am I was ignoring all the pain and anguish and focusing on getting the core work done. At one point one of my co-workers even told me that there was no way I was going to last the entire day. Sadly, I knew they were right. By about 10:00am, my mind threw in the imaginary white towel and I resigned to the fact that I needed to go home and go back to bed.

I left work and headed directly to the closest drug store. There, I picked up the strongest cold medicine I could find and headed directly home. Once home, I changed, and within an hour, was sound asleep in my bed. I would remain this way for the next 4 hours. Once awake, I got up feeling like crap. In fact, I felt so bad I could not and would not be able to fall back asleep until about 4am.

Wednesday morning I woke up to even more symptoms of this plague ravaging my body. After an hour conversation with myself, I decided to take the day off. After calling in sick, I went back to bed.

By about noon, I had to get out of bed. Physically I was still wiped, but my mind couldn’t handle being in bed for almost 14 hours. I got up, and headed upstairs to my office. By the time I climbed my stairs my stomach wanted to take the express back downstairs. Not wanting to throw up on an empty stomach, I decided to try and take my mind off of it. I sat down and coded for the next few hours, trying to keep my mind on anything but my stomach.

By late afternoon Jess and Jackson had come home. I went downstairs to see Jackson, who I hadn’t seen in almost 16 hours. He was hungry and moody, so I got him a bowl of Chex Mix and we sat down on the couch. Surprisingly, I had a few pieces and it didn’t kill my stomach. So he and I shared a nice bowl as a snack while Jess made dinner. Once dinner was ready, I had some but not a lot. It wasn’t for the fact that it wasn’t good, it really was. But my stomach could only take so much food since I really hadn’t eaten anything substantial since Monday. After all was said and done, I spent a nice quiet evening on the couch with my wife and was in bed with her by 11:30pm.

This morning I slept in until about 9:30am. I got up, showered, and then woke up Jackson to take him to day care. You can tell both of didn’t feel good since I slept 10 hours and he slept 13 hours. Not only were neither one of us feeling well, but we had to get thru this to make it to day care.

We are in the middle of a freakin’ monsoon! They’re calling for 2-4 inches by this evening. I can believe it by the way it has been coming down all morning. Needless to say, I got him to day care and now I am sitting here dreading the hour of work as it approaches. I really wish I had more sick time so I could have one more day to rest up and be near 100%, but that’s simply not a reality. The reality is that I am going to go back to work this afternoon at about 75%, and by the time 11:00pm rolls around and we’re allowed to leave, I should be back down to about 25%. Then I will come home and go to bed. Lather, rinse, repeat.

I Have A New Home!

While I don’t have an entire room to call my own, I do have a small corner of our attic to call my own. Until I get a chance to build my new office in the basement, this will be where I do all of my computer work. Considering I haven’t been able to do much in the past 4 months due to Jackson trying to pull out every single cord, it’s nice just to sit here and type out a quick post. Ahhh….

Got Some Speed

So I got the go ahead from my wife today to take over a small portion of our attic as a new mini-office. Since Jackson is just about walking and gets into literally everything, it has been nearly impossible to use either of my desktop systems as they have been in the living room for the past year, having given up my old computer room to him. I am planning to build a proper office this year through the generous donations of Lowe’s gift cards this Holiday Season from friends and family, but until then, I will have a temporary place to call my own. More importantly, I will have a place that is totally inaccessible to my son. The same will be said of my new office that is going to be in the basement. But until then, a small corner will have to do.

I brought my laptop up to the space (in fact, this is where I am writing this post) to see what kind of WIFI signal I can get. Surprisingly, I’m getting a very respectable signal. I pay for 10Mb/s downstream and 1Mb/s upstream. This is what I am currently getting up here.

The only thing that is disappointing is my ping. Normally I would get about a 9ms ping. Up here, I’m up to 26ms. While not a big deal, I can actually feel the slight sluggishness of that ping. But, since I am only going to be up here for about 6 months (God willing!), the fact that I don’t have to drop CAT-6 cable down my chimney chase, into the basement, then up to my network center is a big plus. Both of my desktop machine are equipped with wireless cards, and this will be fine. When my proper office is built, I will be running on solid CAT-6 and bring my 24 port Netgear switch out of retirement. Also making a return will be my proper, 6ft desk and I can get rid of my current 32″ Ikea workstation. I can’t wait to get my desk back!

Vocation To Hobby?

I’ve been thinking about something the better part of a week now. It’s been mulling around in my head most of my waking hours, and I couldn’t make any sense of it. So I decided to outsource my question. Before bed on Saturday night, I posted my question on Facebook: “Once you turn a hobby into a vocation, can it ever become a hobby again?”

Here are the responses I got.

Kristen Williams: Nope because it becomes a chore not for enjoyment. You may enjoy your vocation but it will never be a hobby again.

Rebecca Dashnaw Mendez: Very well said Kristen!!! Couldnt have said it better!!!! BUT…. there may be a way to twist your warped mind (& I mean that in a good way of couse!!) around reasoning to MAKE yourself to believe you can!!!!

Kristen Williams: If one could make a hobby a vocation and still enjoy doing the same thing in their down time I would be very happy for them. I would want to know the way to do that and follow their recipe.

Dave John: I’d imagine it’s a bit like marrying a woman….take that however you will….
=)

The reason I was asking myself this question can be summed up in one easy word: computers. Computers have been a hobby of mine since I was about 7 years old. It continued that way until about 2007. By then, i/o Computers was open for a little over 2 years, and I was totally burnt out on computers. I was so burnt that I took a 90 day leave of absence from the company. When I came back to the company after spending some time over in England, I thought I was ready to jump back in. I was wrong. My heart just wasn’t into it anymore. The business lasted until the end of that year, at which time, we shuttered the business. The following month, being totally disgusted with PCs and their problem, I went out and bought a Macintosh. It has been my main system ever since.

Then I got to toying with the idea of opening up a computer business again this spring. I came up with a name for the new business, registered the domain, secured hosting, registered with all the major vendors, got an EIN, and had business cards made up. I set a opening date of Q4 of 2010. All that needed to be done was to finish the website. Then the voice in the back of my head started talking to me again. So I really want to get into fixing other people’s problems in my free time? I mostly did this as an extra source of income for my family, but at what cost was I going to do this? Back in the day with i/o Computers, i was typically putting in an extra 40hrs a week on the business. Days off were never days off, and vacations rarely were. But things are different now. It’s not going to be a partnership, and I can set whatever prices/hours I wanted to. This started to quell my anxiety.

Then the voices started getting louder.

I loved spending hours on the computer before we opened up the business. It was my favorite hobby. Since 2007, I have had very little interest in computers. These days I honestly rarely sit down at my desktop system. As a matter of fact, my PC is off for weeks at a time, something that was unheard of but 4 years ago. Since I turned a hobby into a vocation had a sullied my once loved hobby forever? On the rare occasion that I do get time to be on my computers, I either feel A) Guilty that I’m not doing something else or B) Bored. Having these feelings, do I really want to put myself in a position where I will be forced to do this several times a week?

Then there’s my family. I love coming home from work, playing with my son, and spending the night with my family. If I do open up a new business, I am going to be sacrificing that time with them for time with my clients. While I will be making some extra money for us, do I really want to do it this way. Then the voice starts telling me that I am the boss and I make all the rules.

At the end of all of this, I am still left with a question without answer. Maybe this is because there truly is no right answer.