I’m currently going through a weird time in my life. It’s changing, and I’m not too sure where it’s exactly heading. Here’s what’s going on.
This past week at work was pure hell. For the first time in 6 years of being there, I actually almost walked out on Wednesday. My co-worked Denise asked me to just sit down and calm down for a few minutes. Thankfully, about 5 minutes of just sitting there calmed me down enough to not only finish out the day, but the week as well. All of this got me to my breaking point though. I need to really start looking for another job. It’s the first weekend in May, I’m just entering my busy season, and I am already burned out. This is not good. I was off yesterday, and it was literally the first time in weeks I was able to get more than 4-5 hours of sleep. I woke up yesterday completely rested. Isn’t that how you’re supposed to feel every morning??
Another weird thing that has been going on is that I have been spending less and less time on the computer. Again, this at its core is a time related issue, but even when I have a few extra minutes, I’m spending it doing other things. For the past 2 weeks, my focus has been working on the house, cleaning and making repairs. I’m not saying for a moment that any of these tasks are wrong. What I am saying is that for me, they tend to be outside the norm. Normally, computers are my priority. Now it seems like they are secondary. Not sure why. It may be due to the fact that I have had quite a few people ask me in the past month to work on their computer. Sure, they are willing to pay me for my time, but to be honest, I don’t want to be bothered with that kind of work anymore. Back in the day, working on computers was fun for me. It was my hobby. It was something I was always eager to do and got enjoyment from it. Then we opened up i/o Computers, and granted, it was fun for the first year. Then towards the end of the second year, it started becoming a chore. When the third anniversary of the business opening was approaching, I had just had enough. I couldn’t stand to look at another computer. Hell, shortly after we closed the business in December 2007 I went out and bought a Macintosh. granted, I’ve always wanted one, but another reason was that I was sick and tired of constantly fixing Windows machines from viruses and spyware. No worries with that on a Mac. Then, almost 2 weeks ago, I go to use my laptop and Vista tells me that my ‘Program Files’ directory is corrupted and cannot be read. Translation — can’t run any programs I have installed. So, pretty much the laptop was useless except to Remote Desktop to other systems in the house. Still sick and tired of fixing computers, the laptop sat, turned off, for 2 weeks. It wasn’t until 2 nights ago that I paid down in bed and reformatted the HD and reinstalled Vista. To be honest, the only reason I sis that is because we are going away next weekend to Gettysburg and I want to take the laptop to upload photos and digitize video. If it wasn’t for the trip, I think it would still be sitting, shut off, on my dresser.
Does this mean I am un-geeking? I don’t think so. What I think all of this means is that my life has been relatively the same for the past upinteen years, and psychologically, I need a change. I personally think this is a good thing.
