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As I sit here and enjoy my hot & sour soup for lunch, I am pleased to report that as of 9:48am this morning, I am officially done with my Christmas shopping for everyone!!! This is a new record for me as I am usually still shopping on Christmas Eve. Go me!!

Well, here it is, my first day off in 8 days and I’m up at 7:10am. Actually, I’ve been up for about 40 minutes already. Why the hell am I up so early when I can be sleeping in? Well, first off Jess had to leave at 7am to go back to school for *cue dreaded drum music* Finals Week!! So, I decided since we effectivly destroyed my house this weekend, to wake up early with her, have breakfast with her before she left, and then get a jump on the day. What do I have to do today?? Glad you asked. I want to straighten up my house, put away the literal mountains of clean laundry Jess did for me (I had no clue I had so many clothes, let alone that all of them were dirty), do the dishes, finish my Christmas shopping once and for all, replace the thermostat in my car, put up my Christmas lights, and last but not least, play a few video games. Now, will I get everything accomplished before I have to go to bed around 2am? I have no clue. I’d like to think I can, but I have been known to be wrong in the past.

Not often, but sometimes…

It’s still raining outside. It seeme like it’s been raining for a month now. I know it’s only been about 2 days or so, but it’s just so damn dreary out. Usually the rain brings me extra energy and inspiration, and if I didn’t have to go to the hell that I call work it just might do that. Instead, it’s just a painful, grey reminder that my day is going to suck. The only bright spot in my day that I can envision is seeing Jess when I come home tonight. But, she’s not feeling well and I’ll probably be tired, so that means I’m probably going to be able to spend about 90 minutes with her before we both fall alseep. Although, I do get to fal asleep with her tonight, so that’s a good thing.

Thinking about yesterday, I’ve come across something most interesting. Yesterday morning, I could barely drag myself out of my chair to dry my work clothes. While I was at work, I was like a turtle walking around. I didn’t want to be there and I had no ambition to do anything. Hell, I volunteered to paint goddamn beams just to help pass the night. Then JP stopped by and we made plans to go Wardriving. All of the sudden I was a little happier. I had something to look forward to. Then, as 10pm approached, I was like a little giddy kid on Christmas Eve. I couldn’t wait to get out and go out. While we were out, we had a blast and talked about our dream to open up our own computer store. I left his house around 2:45am or so, and came home. I was still in a pretty good mood, so I work on my server until about 4:30am. I was still in a good mood (but a little tired) when I eventually went to bed. Now, I sit here, know I have to waste my time at work today, and it depresses me. It’s not that I am lazy, I just don’t like the work I do anymore. I want to work on computers all day. But, at the same time, how does one do this without risking everything?? I guess you don’t. I’m 27 years old, and all I’ve ever done is go from one retail job to the next. I’ve had 2 businesses of my own and a web comic. My 2 businesses fell apart because of my so-called partners. The web comic ended because, well, life happened I suppose. I know that’s no excuse, but I guess I’m not really sure why we ultimately ended the comic. But regardless, I think it may be time to look at another venture. What I do know is that I’ve been in retail for 10 years now, and if I have to spend another 10 years in it, I may just have to take a life.

So…anyone want to put a self-taught g33k on retainer?

I was killing my day at work last night by painting beams. Yeah, exciting, I know. Anyway, all of the sudden I hear a voice behind me say, “EVEN STROKES, BITCH!” Needless to say, I turn around and find JP there. So we get to talking and I tell him about my posts today about how I miss gaming and Wardriving. He looks at me and tells me he’s closing tonight and that his girlfriend shoule be over around 10pm, and that we could probably go out if I wanted to. So I jumped on that offer and we actually went out Wardriving for about 3 hours tonight. It was weird, but fun. The weirdness was attributed to the fact that we haven’t done this in months and we were really out of practice on quite a few things. But it was really fun regardless.

Oh, and I just got my DNS name server for my LAN working properaly. Go me!

I was just killing about 10 minutes while my work clothes were drying so I decided to start reading some of my archives. I honestly don’t think I have read these since I made the actual posts, so it was fun. I read all of January and Febuary 2004. I remember making those posts, feeling somewhat “lost” in my life. Reading them now, I suddenly feel “lost”. Back then, wether I knew it or not at the time, I had a very good direction of what I wanted to do. I was playing EQ again (I really miss it!!) and my life was centered around gaming and Wardriving, 2 things I don’t get to do anymore. I really miss gaming and Wardriving, but it just seems like I don’t have time for either one in my life anymore. I know that having a long distnace relationship takes a lot of the time away from that, but even when I am home, I find that I just don’t have the time, or when I do, JP doesn’t have a sitter for the kids, or I’m just too tired to do anything. I can remember a time when I was with EB and working on The Import Project full time, and still playing EQ for at least 4 hours a night. How the hell did I have all that time back then when I don’t now?? Hell, back then I have a 30 minute commute to work compared to my 15 minute commute now. WTF??? Maybe I just need to commit myself to it. Maybe I just need to say, “no matter what, I’m going to play Diablo II tonight”. I don’t know. All I do know is that reading the posts of last year, I miss that guy…I really do. I want that back. Maybe now that we’re getting back to that time of year it will naturally morph into that. JP will be in his new house with Sara in a few weeks. With her living there he should have a sitter for Wardriving. Plus, we can start having 0ut all night Raven Shield parties again. Maybe in this case I am just a victim of circumstance. Wrong time, wrong place.

Than again, maybe I’m just full of shit…

I slept in today and it felt wonderful!! I think all in all I slept for about 11 1/2 hours and that’s exactly what the doctor ordered! I feel a lot better then I have in the past 2 days. I did want to get my Christmas lights up and my dishes done this morning, but that’s just not going to happen. So, I decided to instead catch up on a few things here. For instance, I finally posted all of the pictures from deer season over there on the moblog. ———>

Also, I got a few things in order for a new site I’m going to start making. It’s actually a website for Jess and her music studio. So last night I went ahead and registered 4 free domains for her (all .info) and pointed them to a temp page today. Now all she has to do is figure out what permanent domain she wants to use (.com) and what type of site she would like.

Also, after I was done making my post last night I happened to look at my archive and saw that I’ve been blogging with actual blogging software now for almost a year. Before that, I was using NewsPro, great for updates, but not so much for blogging. What made me worry though is that I was planning on switching my host next month, which means I have to find someway to archive all of my posts locally so I don’t lose them all. I really want to swtich hosts since mine really screwed me over last year with my .com, but at the same time, I know it’s going to be a lot of work to download everything that I have on all of my sites that I host and then re-upload them to the new site. Argh! Well, I’ve got some time to work on that.

Today starts my lovely 4 day stretch of closing shifts. The only thing that I can look forward to is the fact that they are cutting hours at work and I should be leaving earlier then expected all 4 days. That’s a good thing. I know I’ll be missing out on some money, but when I have Jess here and a shit ton of work to do before Christmas (16 days away!!) I need all the extra time I can get. Thankfully, I’m almost done with all of my shopping. All I have to do is go get my sister’s present (already picked out), and then get something for my parental units. My niece and nephew are done, as is Jess. This is really a first for me as I usually don’t get a chance to actually start shopping until sometime after the 20th of Decemeber. I kind of like having this extra time on my hands.

Ok…this has been one of the most tiring 7 days that I can remember in recent history. I have been literally on the go since last Wednesday morning. To say that I am sleep deprived and exhausted would be a bold unerstatement. I need sleep…for like a week.

I know a lot of people have been waiting for me to post some pics from hunting and such, so don’t worry, they’ll be posted soon. I just need to find some time to download them and post them. Maybe this weekend…

I’ve spent the past 2 nights getting the house server back up and running. It started acting all weird by assigning random IP address on the whim so I wiped the little bastard and install Windows 2000 Advanced Server. Why not Server 2003? Because I hate it. I tried it once and to me anyway, it didn’t have near the configirability (new word?) taht 2000 does in my opinion. So now the web server, ftp server, PHP, MySQL, and DHCP are all running at 100%. All that needs to be done now is the name server and mail server if I decide to install these. I told Jess about my plans for a separate 500gb music server and a nice 1tb video server and she giggled in anticiaption. God I love her.

Other then literally not being home for a week (commuting 164 miles almost everyday) things are about the same. I tend to hate my job a little more each day. The sad part is that I like my job, but I hate being there. Does that make any sense??

Jess is coming up this weekend which is good and bad. It’s wonderful because I don’t have to travel this weekend, but it sucks because I start a nice 4 day closing spree as part of my 7 day hell schedule tomorrow. That means I’ll only be seeing her late Friday night when I get home (just in time to go to bed), late Saturday morning/early afternoon (because we both want to sleep in and I have work at 2pm), late Saturday night when I get home (around 11pm), and then Sunday morning before I go to work and she goes home (work at noon). So, I’m really not going to see too much of her but just he fact that she is going to be here and that I get to fall alseep with her for 2 nights in a row gets me all excited!

This is the last week of class for Jess and next week is finals for her. That means that this weekend will most like be the last time I see her until after Christmas. Man geography sucks somtimes.

Ok, I’m done whining now. Time to make my way to the bedroom and collapse. Toodles…

I know I should be writing a lot more then I am and I know people are still waiting for me to post the pics from yesterday’s hunt. Well, all I can tell you is that this has been one crazy week and it doesn’t look like it’s going to slow up anytime soon. All I can say is bear with me and I will post the pics (and then some) as soon as I get a few free when minutes when I shouldn’t be in bed(like right now!).